Wrestling Demons

Okay. I am happy to be gainfully employed, and I hate being unemployed... but now this is getting a bit ridiculous. I almost prefer unemployment.

My capstone class, I'm realizing, is a huge commitment, and often has me working on things alone that I don't feel comfortable doing without the input of others. I mean, our assignment for week two was to come up with the question that would be the basis for our entire capstone. While I have managed to choose one, I'm riddled with doubt. I don't know if I care enough about this topic to crank out 75-125 pages on it, and my alternative questions are fairly mediocre. Oh, except one... that would probably end up being 400+ pages and take 5 years to complete (which I don't think I have the strength for!)

Then, over the same weekend that I'm supposed to be writing my first draft of my first chapter, I'm also suuposed to be choosing plays to direct for the drama club at work. While I have ideas, I don't personally have a very developed dramatic library, so I don't have a whole lot at my fingertips. I also don't have the time to order a bunch of possible plays and read through them, as I'm supposed to have a list of possible plays by Tuesday. Grr.

I guess I'm just frustrated. I went from having almost no responsibility to having so much that I'm nearly paralyzed by my inability to find a starting point.

Gotta go.